I am determined that this year I will focus on me and my health for a change and anyone who has a problem with that can…well…kiss my butt! I always take care of others and their needs and let myself and my needs go down the drain. Well, no more of that! I am tired of putting myself on the back burner so to speak. After all I have done for others – I am beginning to see that no one but myself is going to do for me. So, this is what I will do – take care of me! I took the first step and signed up for WW’s monthly pass and I am back at the mettings. Truth be told, I really can’t afford it but I also cannot afford to get sick and I know that if I continue with the stress and emotional eating I will end up with diabetes and that I can’t afford due to the fact that I have no health insurance. So paying the $42.95 a month is by far cheaper than an extensive list of visits, tests and meds. Right? Right! I want to be healthy. I want my self esteem back. I want to learn to eat right and not deal with my emotions by eating junk food.

I had my first meeting on Tuesday and it was great! It was kinda like I never left except that I didn’t know anyone except the leader Betsy and her co-worker Linda. All of the folks that used to go while I was going are no longer there. But that’s ok, too! I joined right in – which is hard for me because I get embarrased easily while all eyes are on me - but it was just so much fun that I soon got over it and continued on. I stayed for the orientation after the meeting and got caught up on the changes and stuff and I swear I didn’t want to leave! *lol* I stayed an extra 5 minutes to catch up with Betsy, too – whilst the hubby was waiting in the parking lot! Who cares, I cater to him and his every need all the time so he can wait 5 minutes for me for a change! I am hoping that by this summer I will be able to walk to the meetings. My foot is feeling better these days and I know it has a lot to do with getting on the Wii Fit and exercising it. It doesn’t feel as stiff anymore althought it is still swollen and most of my shoes still don’t fit! I need to get a new pair of sneakers for walking because the Skechers I bought last year no longer fit now thanks to the swelling. But that too is ok! I will figure out a way to get a pair

On to other great news – I am on Facebook and caught up with an old friend of mine from back home. She is currently back home but is moving back to the US. Her husband is already over here in Indiana and is looking into Fort Wayne real estate to purchase a home so that he can move her and her kids over as soon as possible. He retired from the US Army and also has a job lined up already. She stayed behind for a bit because of the kids – so that they could spend some time with their grandparents before making the big move. I am hoping that once she is over here and settled – that we can maybe take a road trip and go see her! She’s already invited us *lol* even though she ain’t even here yet! Oh, to see her again would just make my heart smile. We have a long history, her and I, and I am so happy that she found me on Facebook! So happy in fact – that I yelled out loud and cried when I saw her request! *lol* Hubby looked at me like I was crazy! I was just so happy and surprised and shocked …everything all in once…’ya know? Ever since we have chatted and caught up a bit and while she can’t afford to call the US – I will have to get a calling card and give her a call. I have to hear her voice. I can get a $10.00 card and it’ll give me an hour to Germany so it’s not too bad. I can’t wait. Hopefully I can grab one this weekend!

Ok, I babbled on long enough – so much happening and going on that I have to combine a few days in one post! *lol* But it’s all good….it is all good!